londonbard

Very severe flashes of light; I thought it must be migraine. Now includes or replaced by heavy floaters, in the right eye only.

Not sure if my own Sword of Damocles has started to fall, or at least slip. I was told to go to hospital if this happened so, if it gets worse, I'll phone them or go to their A & E.
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Update; apparently the condition is caused by gel separating from the retina, inside the eye. Not painful, but these symptoms are identical to those of retinal detachment - after I got back from hospital I was trying to sleep in a pitch dark, curtain-closed bedroom. With my eyes closed the flashing was comparable to having a lighthouse just outside, or lightning flashing with every pulsebeat ...

Some time ago an F'lister found a large lump and wrote about boob-mice. There's something there to remind me, but it's difficult to describe - the process leaves "floaters", especially a tangled, dense thingy that looks and moves a lot like a jumping spider. (Creep, creep, cre... Hop! and it pounces on whatever I'm looking at.

Anyway, I'd better get used to the spyder or I might swerve to avoid something that isn't actually there. I've been very strongly warned not to fall. The tugging of the gel can detach the retina and a knock or a jolt could make the difference.

There may be other tricky after-effect. I evidently slept for 12 hours after returning from hospital - the downside is that they were from about 5.30 a.m. to 6p.m.

Anyway, I must start getting on with things - it looks as though there's a lot that I'll still be able to get on with.

Prayers of gratitude are top of the list.

October and the period running through my own birthday and the run-up to Christmas tends to be a bad time for me. I usually get ill, perhaps that has contributed to the fact that there is a network, a jigsaw, of bad anniverseries during those weeks.

(Possibly the most dangerous thing I can do during this period is to try to write fiction, or possibly to write anything against a deadline. I honestly don't know whether that would rule out any possibility that I could be a professional writer. To write to someone else's requirements is just not feasible during about 25% of the year[fairly predictably].)

Years back I talked to a doctor about it and was told that fever, (sleeplessless, high pain levels, etc. - plus, by this point, the effects of fluctuating blood sugar on the brain) all the effects of my physical disabilities also tend to break down mental barriers...

It turned out that I couldn't even write a nomination for a senior colleague until mid-last week (although state of computer/isp big factor in that.) Anyway, I managed it, and the secretariat has, predictably, taken it off the form that I wrote, typed it and worded it as though my work was done by a male job-sharer...

Went to the dentist and at least that's over, scrapy thing and the nearly drill thing.

The Advocacy problem has actually got worse, though.

Blood sugar has been hovering around 7+ and was 5+ the other day. This is A Good Thing.

I've been trying to clear the place pre-possible re-location. I'm now convinced that pain in side is, indeed, sacroilliac. I've discovered something else - on present evidence I can "swim it into retreat." That means the swimming isn't just a healthy luxury, it's something that I should fight to keep if I can. (Either way, my life could improve.)

This was measured, dressed, on the merciless hospital scales. My scales seem to be fairly accurate or weighing heavy!

It also looks as though that part of the ghastly hospital multi-trek is over.

and that is also this -

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And the same today. I very much hope this will stay down - or, better, go down further. I'm fairly sure the hospital/Patterson's clinic won't take the evidence of my clothes!

Maybe I know too many Americans? I just caught myself describing British Health Care with the words -

"it sucks like a great white shark that has been treated by a British Dentist." That may just about sum it up, though.